I can't believe there is only another week in January. Where did the month go?????? Well I haven't exercised since last week. Not feeling so hot tonight. Nose is running and I've got 0 energy. I'm going to have a cup of Green Tea and head to bed soon.
Hope you all had a productive, relaxing weekend. Talk soon.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
January 21st, 2010
I'm here Shel. I've been busy. I must say that when I'm busy, I get totally thrown off my schedule and it takes me several days to get back. I've got to learn to deal with this. I've also learned that when I'm tired like I was on Monday and especially Tuesday of this week. I EAT!!!! Yes, I'm confessing I've been really bad. Today is Thursday and I'm feeling rested.
When I get busy I don't want to do ANYTHING! I don't know if others feel the same. I just have no desire to do school work, house work, or any other kind of work especially working out. I'm okay with this for now. I know I'll snap out of it, at least I hope I will. Part of the problem is that I've taken on too much which then means I can't deal with any of it. I'm on the right track to realizing this. I said it wasn't going to happen over night. I'm learning some stuff about myself which is what all of this is about.
Supervision is calling my name. Got to go.
When I get busy I don't want to do ANYTHING! I don't know if others feel the same. I just have no desire to do school work, house work, or any other kind of work especially working out. I'm okay with this for now. I know I'll snap out of it, at least I hope I will. Part of the problem is that I've taken on too much which then means I can't deal with any of it. I'm on the right track to realizing this. I said it wasn't going to happen over night. I'm learning some stuff about myself which is what all of this is about.
Supervision is calling my name. Got to go.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Purging
Just finished the closet. I've got about 20 pairs of pants that I can't wear right now. They are going in a plastic container to await their time. I'm giving away 2 huge orange garbage bags full of clothes. It's a lot of money being donated to charity. I can't even think right now of how much I've spent on clothes. No more spending like that.
I actually just went shopping in my closet and discovered that I've got quite a few things that I can wear with my new pants and jeans. No I've got to wear them. I think after grocery shopping I'm going to investigate outfits that I could put together. Perhaps taking a picture of them would be helpful.
I actually just went shopping in my closet and discovered that I've got quite a few things that I can wear with my new pants and jeans. No I've got to wear them. I think after grocery shopping I'm going to investigate outfits that I could put together. Perhaps taking a picture of them would be helpful.
January 17th, 2010
I'm purging today. The closet anyways. I've decided that it's time to start taking care of my insides as well as my outsides. I'm thinking some inappropriate clothing needs to disappear. Not that I've got a lot of that type of clothing but it's all the same. Long sleeve t-shirts, sweaters with v-necks, short sleeve t-shirts, etc. It's time to focus on me now. That's the job today.
I worked out and for the first time the 2o minutes didn't feel like it was enough of a workout. I was ready to really put in the time. So I played a little bit of tennis on the Wii after I finished the workout. I'm going to try and go for walk this afternoon with the dogs.
I bought a nice pair of dress pants, and some dressier jeans yesterday along with a cute sweater. I pulled out a blazer I'd kept from when I was this size last time. I know I've got some nicer dress shirts packed away as well. I think I'll pull that stuff out of storage and incorporate it with what I already have. The turtle necks are going. I don't think they are very flattering. I went to a higher end store here in GP called Fashionista. It was on the pricier side but I think the pants can be taken in when some more of the weight comes off. But for the time being I can wear more than one pair of pants. I looked on the Addition Elle and Pennington's websites and there isn't much as far as flattering clothes for larger ladies. I'm going to go and check out Addition Elle for a top or two. But first I'm going to go shopping in the drawers and my closet. Maybe I'll find something I like :-).
Yesterday a friend posted, To diet or not to diet. I replied back with go for it. It will make you feel better about yourself. If your thinking about it then I think its obvious that it's a change you want to make. I know it sure is for myself. It's interesting how we try to improve our teaching practice or our performance at our jobs or try to be a better parent, etc but when it comes to ourselves we hesitate and say, it's okay the way I am. I think sometimes, I settle because it's easier than putting the work into it. I found it interesting because her other friends told her to think of it as a lifestyle change. I don't think it matters if we call it a lifestyle change, best life, healthier you, Biggest Loser, program, or diet. We still want something better. So do it. I think it's important to realize that it's not going to happen within 2 or 3 weeks. It takes a while. That's the hard part. It took some time for it to come back on. I know it did for me. It felt like the weight just appeared, Boom!!!! But it didn't. It's been a year of eating after dinner, not exercising, eating after the eating after dinner, eating way too much food. We've all done it now it's time to accept what we've done and more on to better things.
I've said it before but it's really hard to do this. I just finished looking at women who've gone on the journey. Their pictures are posted on the Weight Watchers Canada site. They've been an inspiration. I know what their struggle has been like. One minute you're like, I can do this, the next it's, I'm okay with who I am. But we're not. I need to get out of this mind set. It's slowly happening and I know it's going to take time. I want to be able to walk up my stairs without huffing and puffing for air. I want to snow shoe for an hour without running out of steam. I want to look healthier and feel better. I don't want the aches and pains I've got now. I want to go camping to Ol'Macdonald's Farm and not sit in a lawn chair because my back hurts. I don't think this is too much to ask for. I'M GOING TO DO THIS.
I worked out and for the first time the 2o minutes didn't feel like it was enough of a workout. I was ready to really put in the time. So I played a little bit of tennis on the Wii after I finished the workout. I'm going to try and go for walk this afternoon with the dogs.
I bought a nice pair of dress pants, and some dressier jeans yesterday along with a cute sweater. I pulled out a blazer I'd kept from when I was this size last time. I know I've got some nicer dress shirts packed away as well. I think I'll pull that stuff out of storage and incorporate it with what I already have. The turtle necks are going. I don't think they are very flattering. I went to a higher end store here in GP called Fashionista. It was on the pricier side but I think the pants can be taken in when some more of the weight comes off. But for the time being I can wear more than one pair of pants. I looked on the Addition Elle and Pennington's websites and there isn't much as far as flattering clothes for larger ladies. I'm going to go and check out Addition Elle for a top or two. But first I'm going to go shopping in the drawers and my closet. Maybe I'll find something I like :-).
Yesterday a friend posted, To diet or not to diet. I replied back with go for it. It will make you feel better about yourself. If your thinking about it then I think its obvious that it's a change you want to make. I know it sure is for myself. It's interesting how we try to improve our teaching practice or our performance at our jobs or try to be a better parent, etc but when it comes to ourselves we hesitate and say, it's okay the way I am. I think sometimes, I settle because it's easier than putting the work into it. I found it interesting because her other friends told her to think of it as a lifestyle change. I don't think it matters if we call it a lifestyle change, best life, healthier you, Biggest Loser, program, or diet. We still want something better. So do it. I think it's important to realize that it's not going to happen within 2 or 3 weeks. It takes a while. That's the hard part. It took some time for it to come back on. I know it did for me. It felt like the weight just appeared, Boom!!!! But it didn't. It's been a year of eating after dinner, not exercising, eating after the eating after dinner, eating way too much food. We've all done it now it's time to accept what we've done and more on to better things.
I've said it before but it's really hard to do this. I just finished looking at women who've gone on the journey. Their pictures are posted on the Weight Watchers Canada site. They've been an inspiration. I know what their struggle has been like. One minute you're like, I can do this, the next it's, I'm okay with who I am. But we're not. I need to get out of this mind set. It's slowly happening and I know it's going to take time. I want to be able to walk up my stairs without huffing and puffing for air. I want to snow shoe for an hour without running out of steam. I want to look healthier and feel better. I don't want the aches and pains I've got now. I want to go camping to Ol'Macdonald's Farm and not sit in a lawn chair because my back hurts. I don't think this is too much to ask for. I'M GOING TO DO THIS.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Saturday morning
Got on the Wii Fit this morning. It told me it's been 357 days since I last stepped on it and that I've gained something like 25 pounds. Nice hey!!!! Nothing like seeing it in 42 inches right there. That was a wake up call. I did the Wii Fit but I think I still like the EA Sports Active better. I work more body parts and feel like I'm working out. I actually did both, each about 20 minutes.
Thanks Shel for the words of encouragement. I'm doing it because I know it's going to be good for me in the end but it's sooooooooooo hard. I was thinking to myself that it's okay to be this size because lots of other women are. I watched What Not to Wear last night and this woman looked fabulous in her clothes and then I kept thinking about how I dress, especially for work and it's blah. Trust me I'm not beating myself up over this but just thinking. I wear the same jeans because they're the only ones that fit right now. The same long sleeve t-shirts, etc. I've got nice clothes. Some don't fit right now actually lots don't fit. It's going to change. I think I need to go out and get myself a new pair of jeans, a cute sweater and a shirt. I need a pick me up. Plus, if I feel better on the outside I think that will help on the inside.
Lots is going on. Stuff I've got control of and other stuff that's cluttering up my head. I've got to get rid of it. I will in time I've just got to work through it. You're right Shel, the chocolate has to go in the garbage. I've eaten way too much of it since Tuesday. At the end of the day, it's calling my name, not literally but I just know it's there. When I head into work today I'm going to get it out of my site.
Have a great day. I know I will, the sun is shining here. It's terribly icing since the freezing rain. Maxx had a tough time getting up the path where he goes just now. I'm going to aim for a walk and a new outfit.
Thanks Shel for the words of encouragement. I'm doing it because I know it's going to be good for me in the end but it's sooooooooooo hard. I was thinking to myself that it's okay to be this size because lots of other women are. I watched What Not to Wear last night and this woman looked fabulous in her clothes and then I kept thinking about how I dress, especially for work and it's blah. Trust me I'm not beating myself up over this but just thinking. I wear the same jeans because they're the only ones that fit right now. The same long sleeve t-shirts, etc. I've got nice clothes. Some don't fit right now actually lots don't fit. It's going to change. I think I need to go out and get myself a new pair of jeans, a cute sweater and a shirt. I need a pick me up. Plus, if I feel better on the outside I think that will help on the inside.
Lots is going on. Stuff I've got control of and other stuff that's cluttering up my head. I've got to get rid of it. I will in time I've just got to work through it. You're right Shel, the chocolate has to go in the garbage. I've eaten way too much of it since Tuesday. At the end of the day, it's calling my name, not literally but I just know it's there. When I head into work today I'm going to get it out of my site.
Have a great day. I know I will, the sun is shining here. It's terribly icing since the freezing rain. Maxx had a tough time getting up the path where he goes just now. I'm going to aim for a walk and a new outfit.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
January 14th evening
So I've got some confessions to make. On the way home from Peace River I ate 4 100 calorie chocolate bars. I just couldn't stop. I'd done really well up until it was time to come home. The drive home in the sleet and snow was stressful and I was so tired from the stress of the presentation. I've got to learn to deal with this kind of stress, eventually but not right now.
I've come home each day this week tired and really not very motivated. This weight loss/healthy lifestyle is really hard work. I guess it means it's hard work to take care of yourself and value yourself. When ever I get out of my "regular" schedule I find it difficult to keep on track. Traveling doesn't do good things to my body anyways. The food isn't the same, I can't always control what food is available, etc. I try my best to bring what I can but it doesn't always work out. I think the fact that I'm aware of this is a step in the right direction.
I came home today and before dinner I played the Wii, just tennis and boxing. I'm going to look at getting the Resort game for some more variety. I at least did this. My food intact has been okay. Although I've got to get rid of those left over chocolate bars in my classroom. I had one after school again today. I am counting them in my plan so it's not like I'm being dishonest.
I'm hoping I'm back on track. Tomorrow I'll get up and workout again. I think heading to bed after I'm finished writing this would help. I got about 9 hours of well deserved sleep last night. It's been a difficult day with a very difficult child in my room. He was so bad today. I just wanted him gone at the end. Tomorrow's a new day. Rest is a very good thing. I don't know how parents do it with kids, lack of sleep, husbands, wives, work, etc. My hats off to you all. Okay, I feel myself rambling so it's time to go. I'll write more tomorrow.
Keep it up. I'm back in the saddle as they say. I don't know who but I've heard it said before :-).
I've come home each day this week tired and really not very motivated. This weight loss/healthy lifestyle is really hard work. I guess it means it's hard work to take care of yourself and value yourself. When ever I get out of my "regular" schedule I find it difficult to keep on track. Traveling doesn't do good things to my body anyways. The food isn't the same, I can't always control what food is available, etc. I try my best to bring what I can but it doesn't always work out. I think the fact that I'm aware of this is a step in the right direction.
I came home today and before dinner I played the Wii, just tennis and boxing. I'm going to look at getting the Resort game for some more variety. I at least did this. My food intact has been okay. Although I've got to get rid of those left over chocolate bars in my classroom. I had one after school again today. I am counting them in my plan so it's not like I'm being dishonest.
I'm hoping I'm back on track. Tomorrow I'll get up and workout again. I think heading to bed after I'm finished writing this would help. I got about 9 hours of well deserved sleep last night. It's been a difficult day with a very difficult child in my room. He was so bad today. I just wanted him gone at the end. Tomorrow's a new day. Rest is a very good thing. I don't know how parents do it with kids, lack of sleep, husbands, wives, work, etc. My hats off to you all. Okay, I feel myself rambling so it's time to go. I'll write more tomorrow.
Keep it up. I'm back in the saddle as they say. I don't know who but I've heard it said before :-).
January 13, 2010
I'm here. Just worked out for first time in 4 days. Fell off the wagon but I got back on. Will write more tonight about experience. Off to shower and get ready for work.
So glad I got up this morning and did my workout.
So glad I got up this morning and did my workout.
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